Bad Habits Turn To Good Habits

Many who know me, know that since I had Paizlei, I have struggled with depression and weight gain.  I blame the weight gain on the depression.  The day I was discharged, the PPD hit me like a ton of bricks.  I could not stop crying and feeling hopeless and helpless.  My wonderful nurse came in shortly after the delivering doctor left my room to give me my pain meds and I couldn't stop crying.  After she left, I called my Mom in tears.  Shortly after hanging up with her, my sister Melanie called.  The delivering doctor happened to be Melanie's doctor while she was pregnant with her little boy.  She told me to talk to him about anti-depressants.  I left the hospital later that day with the medicine in hand.  The depression didn't magically disappear and my newborn baby was still in the hospital even though I was not, and that is what, I believe, was the triggering factor in my PPD going full-blown.


Here we are, 19 months later, still struggling with depression, but I have my baby home with me, smiling, giggling, laughing, playing, singing, dancing...everything a little girl should do.  In the last 19 months, I have picked up some HORRIBLE eating habits.  I made the decision 2 weeks ago to change those eating habits and add A LOT more active habits...meaning, I am not sitting on the couch feeling hopeless and helpless, not feeling alone.  I have decided to change how I feel.  I realized I am the only one who can change how I feel and what I do and eat.  So, here are my goals:


-Exercise for at least 45 minutes every morning.
-Eat 3 well-balanced meals every day and 3 well-balanced snacks a day.
  -My snacks consist of mainly fruits and veggies, but I throw in a couple of almonds or string cheese or yogurt here and there.  And, I keep a journal of EVERYTHING I eat and drink.
-Be more active with my kids...morning, noon and night.
-Do something for ME, something I like, every day.
-Write my thoughts down in a journal every day.
-Do 30 minutes of my favorite yoga (Namaste Yoga) for 30 minutes each night before bed.


What do you think of my goals/changes?  I think they are great!  I have noticed a change in how I feel.  I am still tired when I wake up, but not as tired.  My pants are starting to get loose again.  Although, I don't have a scale, I like it that way, I don't know how much weight I have lost, if I have lost any, I still feel so much better.  I hope to be able to be down to my pre-pregnancy weight of 138, how much I weighed when I found out I was pregnant with Hunter.  I know I have a LONG ways to go, but I know I can do it.  I secretly vowed to do it together with my sweet friend Emily, who has struggled with the same things as I have since she had her little boy, who is around the same age as Paizlei.  Emily and I go WAY back to our Enrich International/Rexall Showcase International turned Unicity Network days.  We both competed in MANY weight loss contests at Unicity, then it was Enrich.  I won one of the contests, but Emily was there with me through a lot of it.  I lost something like 50 lbs and won $300 in gift certificates to Provo Towne Center so I could by new clothes.  I know I won't get that luxury with this goal, but I hope to be able to fit into all the clothes I have been holding on to since before I was pregnant with Hunter.  Mostly pants, capris and bermuda shorts.


I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!!!!


And, just to share with you, this is my ALL-TIME FAVORITE SNACK!!!!  I LOVE these!!!!  The best part, I saw them on The Biggest Loser last season, so I know they are healthy for you, because they wouldn't be advertised on the show if they weren't.

They are kind of pricey for 2 servings, but they are SOOO worth it.  Emily, if you haven't tried these, you should.  You will LOVE them, I promise!  Thanks for being such a great friend.  Even though you live in Springville, we will still do this together.  Love you, girl!